Post labour day

MY QUACKIEX IS BACK!! I am sosososo happy lahs. alrights. I beta stop showing my gaga-ness over my hellmate. 'cause my beloved boyfren just told me that I sound lesbian-ish. Sobs. How can lidat sae me?!! =((

Life's tiring. I practically lost sleep last night. I din sleep a wink. And right now, my eyes are straining painful. hmms. oh wells. Duno why. Just cldn't get to slp. Perhaps, I am missing him too much? hmms. Hais. Whu asked my boyfren to be so busy?!! argh. *hmmphs*

Anewaes. Todae had geog test. And I actually studied fer it last night. Wahaha. BUT! Ended up my dear handsome geog teacher told me its goin to be an openbook test. How nice! =( All my efforts gone to waste. Lost hope in studying lers. Oh yarhs. I duno whats wrong wif my dumb maths teacher. She just can't teach lahs. Keep on wasting my precious time. Oh my gosh. Now she wana haf maths lessons on saturdae as well. Ther goes my precious weekend. Argh. Haha. I am goin to MUG fer maths and get a B! hmms.. not veri achieveable.. but I'll try ya? But then hors.. World Cup cuming!! Jialat. Think Yvonne's cuming ova to stayover. Heex. Can haf company to watch the matches wif. No longer lonely.=DD

Gona go off n try studying econs. =DD I am a gd gurl. WEE! =DD

`the oni thing I wan fer my birthday is, happiness..

Sunday

Had a good cry last night. Just gotten stretched to the extreme that I just broke down. Hais. I am sorry honey. Didn't mean to take it out on you. I'm sorry. Sunday. I missed service today. Hais. I just got grounded fer today. Sianned.

hmms. Oh wells. Hate to be reminded of my bad memories lorhs. I am sumone whu badly wishes to forget all the shitty-nutty stuffs n hides them all at the back of my head. Hmms. Sumhow, ppl will just unintentionally remind me of them. *cringes in pain* Hmms.. I seriously haf a psychological problem after all that has happened. hais. Insecurity has became a part of me now. And sumtimes, it drives me crazy. Sumtimes, I really wish I wldn't haf that dumb feeling in me. argh. But I can't help much about it. *frustrations* Hate this mans. When will this ever end fer me? =((

I dread the month of May. Year after year, the same stuffs happened. Kinda a routine lers. I'm used to it. *shrugs* Became numbed lers. hmms. Oh wells. Haf decided to get the 200++ bracelet fer mummie. Gona be sososo broke. I wish this year wld be different. I wana be happy, that's all.

busybusyweek

*xin clears the cobwebs n sweep away the dust*

Its been so long since I blogged. Alrights. Though its been oni lyke urms..three days. Haha. Duno why it just feels so long to me. Perhaps, its 'cause too many things are happening bahs. Oh wells. Been feeling veri lethargic recently. Duno why.

Hmms. Ysd Jer came to find me. Wee! Finally lorhs. Haven seen him lyke fer a week n one day till yesterday. You can't imagine how happy I wus lorhs. Ask flor. She saw my expression when I read the msg in which he said he wana cum find me. =D *hapi hapi grin* Haha. I feel so dumb. *shrugs* Am so dumbly in love wif this guy.. =P Watched firewall. Hey. I lyke the movie! haha. though I wus rather slpy thruout. haha. =) i love you dear..

Today's another hapi hapi day! hmms. I had my first pizzahut date with my gorgeous hellmate! *hyperventilates* but before I go into details abt that. I hafta mention the prelude. Haha. Both of us ran out of school lyke two mad women. Two teachers saw us. haha. Kinda dumb. Then we were sweating so unglam-ly. hmms. N we saw the big director at the busstop. N my dear hellmate started to panic. *hmmphs..i m jealous* Haha. She's so cute lahs. =) Alrights. End of prelude. The date wus great =D We practically tok abt everything under the sun. hmms. Crapped wld be a better word. haha. Kept luffing n luffing. People at pizzahut must haf thought that we are mad. We even thought of pulling a prank on the staffs when settling the bill. But too bad, we were in school uniforms. We are good students whu maintain the gd reputation of pjc. Haha. Shared icecream. Hmms. I miss swensens icecream mans!! *argh* Oh yarhs. I forgot that the choc fudge wus at the bottom. N ended up we finished everything then discovered abt the fudge. Geez. And I started fooling wif the fudge. Opps. My hellmate wus so evil lahs. She videoed me down. SEVEN VIDEOS of my dumbness. Omg! I oni got TWO precious ones of her. =D I m the angel, she's the devil. =D She's just sososo cute! haha. Geez. I'm showing signs of lesbianism. Kidding. I'm straight. haha. Oh wells. Its good to see you smiling n enjoying urself =D Dun miss me too much when you're away on ur camp. Though I noe you wld.. just refrain abitbit okays? =D *bhb-ism showing* I LOVE YOU, quackiex =D

hmms. Had quietened dwn quite abit recently. As in, I am less noisy as compared to the usual me. Think von's worried fer me. I'm quite fine lahs. Silence fer others may mean that they're sad or sth. But fer me, I'm thinking. Or rather, I chose to retreat back into my own world. Veri weird, isn't it? I'm not unhappy, yet I'm doing this. Rather contradictory. *shrugs* Oh wells, I tend to be unrealistic at times. Thinking that all will turn out as to what I haf expected and when things doesn't, I'll be utterly upset and stuffs. Immature thinking, you might think. But thats just me. Duno why. I dun lyke the world that we live in. Too much complications. I lyke simplicity. I rather be simple-minded n be ignorant abt all that is happening ard me. There is just too much complications everywhere. And it makes ppl confused n lost. I do too, 'cause I dun understand why things hafta turn out in a certain way n can't accept it as it is. hmms. why can't relationships last forever? why can't ppl stay in love forever? why can't breakups cease to exist? why can't everything just turn out to haf a happy ending? why must things be so unpredictable? why must things change? why must ppl change? why can't one stay happy forever? *argh* alrights. I shall calm dwn. hais. Its partly because of all these that we feel so insecure abt our own future. We're living in a world where everything is unpredictable. Where hypocrites, backstabbers, jerks n bastards exist. Hah. Scary world. =( argh. I dun even noe what the hell am I toking abt anemore. I shldn't be feeling this way abt things. By right, I shld be lyking these situations, 'cause I'm a risktaker. Perhaps, its 'cause I've gotten too sick n tired of these complicated challenges in life.. too tired to get hurt.. too tired to endure ane heartbreaks.. too tired to deal wif things bahs.. Perhaps, thats why I wana stay in my own world.. where everything is simple n happy=)

`I have this dream..wishing that I can be always happy with the one whu truly loves me..

back frm night jaunt

Hmms. Am back frm night jaunt. Hmms. Kinda tiring but I had fun! Serious. Though the night jaunt wusn't really a gd success. Oh wells. But one good thing is, everyone had their fair share of fun. Night jaunt ended wif everyone feeling tired but happy. hmms. Night safari wus fun as usual. haha. Took quite a number of pics. hmms. Kelvin's super cute. Hah. Orights. I know this shldn't be cuming frm me. But haha, can't help it. He's a super nice guy to chat wif. Super gentlemanly too. Omg. Haha. Shucks. My weakness got discovered by fen during the night safari. =S hmms. Had Ben&Jerry's too. Yummielicious. haha. Kelvin got a bigger scoop than all of us. Hmmphs. So unfair. hmms. Supper at East Coast Lagoon is great! haha. Wus so darn full lahs. hmms. Too bad we din had time to go check out the Carpark C fer free shows. Tsk! hmms. Changi Village wus erms.. ok lahs.. Kinda got affected by kelvin. Hmms. He felt upset fer them. Went Red House.. but it started pouring then we had to retreat to Geylang. The driver wus super pissed off. And so, I bought soya beancurd fer the driver. Hmms. Went back to Red hse N Old Changi Hospital. Not really freaky lahs. Last stop wus @ the cemetery before we set off back to school. Den it wus home sweet home fer me.

Alrights. I just woke up not long ago. hmms. Still feeling lethargic. Hmms. I know I just pissed off my bf wif my attitude. Hais. Can't help it. I am really feeling veri cranky 'cause I am not able to see him till until.. maeb nxt sat? hais. I'm a hopeless attention seeker. Hais. *shrugs* I'm sorry dear. I din mean to do it. Forgive me?

The day before night jaunt

Am feeling much much beta now. Thanks nessa fer listening to my bullshit. haha. Thanks to my ever so sweet n great boyfren too. Thanks fer taking time out to call me. Hmms. Oh wells. I'm so much better now. Hmms. But I think I am falling sick lers. Having a bad headache. Must be due to getting drenched frm the rain. Heex. I dun lyke bringing umbrella out with me de. yi ge ren cheng san shi hen ji mo de...

Todae's ok day. PE wus TOUGH!! Had five rounds of obstacles course. Sum ppl just look so ridiculous doing them. Haha. I mite be one of them *shrugs* =P hmms. hmms. Rushed to lotone after sch wif flor to avoid being stuck in sch if it rains. Slacked at MAC. hmms. Told flor sum stories. Haha. So funny. hmms. Den pei flor take bus to boonlay fer her bible studies.. N I took the train back to cck. During my journey to boonlay n back to cck, I wus typing a story on my hp. Haha. In cheena. Thats why it took me so long. Just gt the urge to type a nice story. Hmms. Sent to david's hp fer leen n forwarded it to flor too. I just love the story. Just nw read the story to dear. but dun tink he lykes it lahs. I think it must haf sounded real dumb to him lorhs. hais. oh wells. =)

Night Jaunt's tml lers. Omg! so scary. Fer a perfectionist lyke me, I wished that all turns out fine n everyone wld haf lotsa fun. Hais.. too bad my dear wun be ther wif me.. no matter how much I wish.. =(((

xin is useless

I purposely created a password fer my blog fer ppl whu are really close to read my entries. hmms. Am feeling sad nw. 'Cause of what happen to my gd fren. argh. Hmms. Dun wry abt it, girl. Its oni natural that I feel this way. =)

Sumhow, looking at things now, brings back alot of stuffs. All that I haf been thru. The heartaches, the non-stop crying. As well as the tots that went thru my mind during that dark period. Girl, you aren't alone. It's only natural to think of such tots. To feel lost, confused n even the tots of dying. But think abt it. Are those tots worthed put into action? Think abt the consequences. Think abt how ur frens n family wld feel. You've gotta be strong fer them. Just rmb that you'll always have ppl, frens, family members whu really care. If there's anething, just find sumone to tok to. Don't ever worry about troubling ppl. Its not good to keep things bottled up. I used to do it. And I regretted it. 'Cause I nearly died of depression. Rmb that there'll always be us standing by you. Thats what makes u so different frm me. Don't ever think of doing anything stupid. Its not going to make things better. It might just worsen things. My dear girl, rmb that we love you =) God makes things happen fer a reason. Haf faith, dear=)

Hmms. If I were to say, I ain't affected by this all. I wld be lying. Haha. *shrugs* I feel sumthing special between me n my dear girl. Sth reali special. Sth that oni besties share. A ever so special bond. hmms. Of course, I wld feel insecurity right now. But I know, thats not going to help things. I shld haf faith n trust, even if I don't haf in myself, I shld be trusting my other half. Hmms. Sumhow, I feel that, if the same things were to happen to me all over again, I wldn't know what to do. All I know is that, I wld be very lost. And so, I pray hard that, I wun hafta go thru all those again. I hope. =X

I feel so soso guilty. Fer not being able to help though I haf the same experience. Or rather, worse. Just follow ur heart, my dear. Dun lose ur faith due to circumstances. You're a rational girl, frm what I haf always known you to be. Promise me, that you'll gona be all well n happy soon kays? =) I'll pray fer you=)

`I can never imagine life w/o you. I'm feeling scared n insecured right now.

blueyblueymondae

Think I'm having the monday blues as usual=( Kinda feeling rather melancholy quite recently. Duno why. *shrugs* Perhaps, it's just me thinking too much bahs. hais. oh wells. Now fer updates.

Went church service wif flor ysd. The drama wus nice. Haha. Heard frm cheuk that she got freaked out by the actor's shouting in front of her. haha. So funny. Hmms. Den hung ard expo to look at sum exhibits, n not forgetting the johnlittle sale. Haha. Sumhw stil duno understand what's so fascinating abt that sale. Lols. Din see anething that I lyke. haha. Den dragged flor go bugis wif me to shop. Couldn't find the stuffs that I wanted so badly. Shucks. ='(

Todae's a boring boring monday. I'm especially cranky todae. Practically slpt thru most of my lessons. Geez. Feel lyke a piggie now. haha. PE's extremely exhausting todae. haha. todae's nt a gd day=(

sum things are really not meant to be spoken abt. hais. else it might just worsen things. And so, it just did. Hate this type of stuffs. Made me so emotionally-drained. I m veri veri veri tired. But yet, nth cld be done abt it. I just feel so out of this world. Lyke my quackies, sumtimes, I just find life so utterly boring n sucky. lols. Can't help it. I shld b more optimistic. Haha. Tml's gona be a better day! *prays hard*

`when I dun question/say a thing, it doesn't mean I don't care; it just means that I care too much to nt interfere . . .

my boyfren is the sweetest!!

Just reached back hm nt long ago. Rainy weather again. hmms. Todae gt geog tutorial. Went ther to slack 'cause I did NONE of my hwk. haha. oh wells. Left sch wif my darl quack n flor. Hais. My quack's upset. Uhoh. Feeling rather guilty right nw. Sheesh. Shld haf kept my mouth shut. hmms.

Finally convinced flor to go kboxing wif me. I seriously nidda de-stress!! Haf been really cranky recently. Kbox wus fun wif flor. haha. We practically got very hyped up; I think I've gone mad lahs. Food wus okay. Got my fav mini octopus!! haha. heex. alrights. I duno why am I so hyped up todae even though I lacked slp. Heex.

hmms. Jer came at ard twelve to pei wo. He came ova as soon as he woke up. Hmms. so touched lahs. thanks dear. hmms. Went to watch art of seduction at cwp. Lame show lahs. haha. But comical enuff to make me luff. Hmms. after movie, can't think of anething to do lorhs. Hmms. Jer just drove ard then we stopped at sumwher wher we cld see the causeway. Got out of the car to enjoy the breeze awhile before it pours. haha. Sat in the car, listening to music. haha. Den reluctantly, home sweet home. I noe its veri early lahs. But no choice, my bf dun wana kip me company mahs. haha. kidding.

`sumtimes, I am curious to know how important I am in your life . . .

Root Canaling LAST day !!

Just came back frm the dentist not long ago. My dentist's super nice to me todae fer sum unknown reasons. Perhaps, he's happy to be getting rid of me. Haha. Had my last treatment todae. Cool.. haha. Din expect it to be so fast! haha. Last time I had FIVE major treatments before I recovered. The advancement in science n tech rawks mans! =D *big big grin* oh yarhs. When I wus in the dental rm, wus watching the tv n I saw SAS. -__-" he's holding the crown thingy fer the crowning of ms sg universe lahs. He looks so weird in his TIGHT tux. omg. Guess flor *fLo* will be hyperventilating while watching the encore. =Pp

School's okay todae. Just feeling veri drowsy lorhs. I lacked slp. Thanks to my beloved bf. hmms. But I dun blame him lahs. I miss him the same way too. =) hmms. PE's tiring as usual. haha. Todae alot of ppl absent sia. Nv jio me along. Sobs. Oh yarhs. Got our Projwrk results liaos. Everyone gt an A2 except sum. Msged kingkong to tell him. haha. Cheered him up in the midst of his illness. haha. I am a kind soul! =D

alrights. tml's a public hol! wee. Can haf a gd gd rest. hmms. alrights. Am going to slp soon liaos. hmms. my quack isn't veri cheery todae. =( Duno what happen to my quack. * gives quack a hug* hope you'll be smiling again soon =) love ya quack =)

Tiring Wednesday

It's a tiring tiring day. Reached home not long ago. Haha. Am really drained of all my energy lorhs. Hmms. Lessons were boring as usual. Had GP essay practice today. Argh. I realised I can't do a proper essay plan! haha. Just not used to doing it. *shrugs* And during the two hrs break, I wus dying of BOREDOM. Tried to msg Jer but he's busy with his stuffs. hais. Maths wus worse. I am a bad influence, I must admit. I'm always distracting ppl frm studying. oops!

Went fer hclub miting. Todae conducting interviews fer the jc1s. Kinda one-man show. Interviewing ppl IS tiring! All the questionings nearly killed me. Esp the one wif Jingyi. OMG! I had to try very hard to keep a straight face. It's weird interviewing ur fren lahs. Am rather satisfied with their responses. Gene n evan came to crash 'cause I said ther were sum pretty girls. haha. typical guys. *shakes head* hmms. Right now, having lotsa probs wif night jaunt. Spidey wana go, jingyi n gang wana go, SO MANY PPL WANA GO but I can't do much to help!! argh.

After meeting, went off wif von, fen, gene n evan. Tok crap again. I dropped my wallet on the bus again. Duno why recently I haf becum so careless. haha. Jialat. hmms. Had lunch wif fen before goin window shopping. Lunch wus great. haha. Wus toking abt fen abt my great other half. haha. Found a gorgeous dress. Simple design but sleek. =D

Tml's the last sch day of the week!! *though am having geog tutorial on sat* WEE!! haha. Gona go off to TRY studying fer maths test.

`missing eu far too much=(

Monday blues =/

Think I'm having the Monday blues. Have been feeling cranky fer the whole day. My gastrics's killing me! argh. Hate it. Now I can't even go on a proper diet. Sianned. Maybe, I shldn't skip my meals so often. Blehs. *shrugs*

Had a nice girls' talk wif susu, flor, leen, n my quackiex. Though kinda crappy n the contents kinda.. urms.. weird? okays. But I'm open to such stuffs. So I'm okay wif it. *winkx* hmms. Den leen mentioned my blog. haha. I love that quote too!! "love is not about the moments you shared wif your other half, but about the number of moments that take your breath away." nice rites? haha. Think abt it. How many such moments actually exist in your relationship? hmms. =)

Leen also mentioned abt the quote that always appeared at the left-hand bottom of my blog. "time heals all wounds but breeds new ones." hmms. I din think of this myself. It came with this blogskin n I chose to keep it 'cause I find it rather true. hmms. alrights. it all depends bahs. hmms. true la. time can ease the hurt n pain you once faced or been thru though the scars remain deep dwn. hmms. as fer the second part of that quote. hmms. sumtimes, a guy cums along. Feelings developed, sparks fly all over the place. Sumhow, you just feel that he's the right one. But if he's not, ther goes the vicious cycle again, breeding new wounds. hmms. but then again, I'm no pessimist lahs. hmms. just saying what I feel bahs. *shrugs*

Sumhow, I dun feel lyke going fer night jaunt anemore. Its gona b all weird since he's going. Alrights. I dun reali hate so much anemore. Hating is tiring. But, sumthing just hold me back frm forgiving such a person. My principles? Or merely my stubbornness? I dun deny, I am a selfish lover. sumone whu wldn't wana share my other half. N nids lotsa attention n love. haha. hmms. Hopefully, I can enjoy night jaunt. Its gona be my last hclub activity lers. =S

Gona go rest lers. Pretty worn out after PE lers. tata~

`hoping that you are the right one fer me *Je t' aime*

xin ain't happy.

Dun ask me why I ain't happy. Its just the emotion in me right now. Could be 'cause of all the sad songs that I haf been blasting in my ears. Could be 'cause what happened last night when I reached hm. Could be 'cause of all the stress that I am facing and giving myself bahs.

hmms. ysd after my date wif Jer. Came home oni to find dad on the phone wif mdm khoo, my civic tutor. Hmms. alrights. dad wusnt exactly happy with what he heard lahs. hais. All I get is blames after blames. yayaya.. its all my fault. Not not putting enuff efforts. Even the fact that I wus veri sick during my CT period wusn''t a good enuff excuse. Its not as though I am proud of my results lidat. argh. I am darn disappointed too kays?! Just that I dun show it much tts all. Feeling so tired n stressed out. Parents quarrelling behind my back. argh. Can't I just have sum peace? * xin needs a shoulder to lean n cry on*

hmms. my unhappiness has nth to do wif my dear. hmms. on the hand, I think I haf always been making him unhappy n stuffs. hais. Sorry jer. hmms. I am such a lousy gf lahs. Its lyke I can't even go msia to meet you n you are always making the trips to sg to keep me company. I feel so guilty. Sorry dear.

Just saw this on the PRF's blog. Posted by my hellmate. I'm just copying over those related to me de. haha.

Personality test by name : Doesyour name begin with:

J?You are blessed with a great deal of physical energy. When used for a good cause there is nothing to stop you, except maybe that they aren't always used for the good. ( you could dance all night.) You respond to the thrill of the chase and the challenge of the mating game. You can carry on great romances in your head. At heart you are a roamer and need to set out on your own every so often. You will carry on long- distance relationships with ease. You are idealistic and need to believe in love. You have a need to be nurtured deep within.

truetruetrue. haha. yarhs. 100% true of me. blehs.

By month : MAY*Stubborn and hard-hearted *Strong-willed and highly motivated *Sharp thoughts *Easily angered *Attracts others and loves attention *Deep feelings *Beautiful physically and mentally *Firm standpoint *Easily influenced *Needs no motivation *Easily consoled *Systematic (left brain) *Loves to dream *Strong clairvoyance *Understanding *Sickness usually in the ear and neck *Good imagination *Good debating skills *Good physical *Weak breathing *Loves literature and the arts *Loves traveling *Dislike being at home *Restless *Hardworking *High spirited *Spendthrift

Quite true bahs. haha. =Pp

By birthdate: May 15th - May 24thGold

GOLD ~ You know what's right and what's wrong. You are cheerful and out going. It's hard for you to find the one you want, but once you find the right person, you won't be able to fall in love again for a long time.

Yupsyups. TRUE. haha. I just love personality tests that analysize me so accurately. haha. =D

alrights. Gotta go study lers. Gonna mug hard fer midyear exams. =)

Random post

Random post. Its Friday once again. Today wusn't a bad day. Except that Mdm Khoo, my civic tutor, actually talked to me. Talked abt my sucky results. She said she's going to call my daddy n talk to him abt it. Argh. I am so dead. Hopefully daddy wun make a big fuss out of it. Anewae, she's sending me for econs remedial. OMG! Thats goin to suck mans. Its lyke sending me to the nunnery lidat lahs. =X its just a metaphor. haha. Imagine jiaxin goin fer econs remedial. Thats goin to be sum joke of the yr lahs! >.< color="#cc66cc">Seven mths to my freedom! =D

Hmms. Today nearly went to sch late again. Fen told me sum stuffs that got me rather pissed off. hmms. I wusnt pissed off by her. But the contents of what she said. Hmms. Sorry fen. I can't help it lahs. I'll try to be nice =) hmms. My mood wus spoilt fer the whole day. Talked to my hellmate abt stuffs frm the past. Bad memories. hmms. Its alrdy too late fer repentance. What's the use since the harm n hurt haf been done? Sorry fen. I just can't bring myself to forgive sumone lidat completely. Sorry.

Oh yarhs! today flor took my hellmate's photo while she wus snoozing during assembly. She's so gorgeous even when she's dozing off to slp. Sheesh..I am so in love wif my hellmate=D Peiling is such a great hellmate. *xin showing signs of turning les..uhoh* she's gorgeous, funny, lame, hot n sexy. N also, she's so nice to me!! We had a romantic walk in the rain ysd. She even held the umbrella fer me. So sweet right?!! =D I'm leaving my hp's wallpaper as it is. Its so nice lahs. I LOVE MY QUACK=D

hmms. Had a gd chat wif my gd fren just nw. Were talking abt our future stuffs. He said my thinking has changed lers. Haha. Haf I? hmms. Perhaps bahs. I used to be veri simple-minded. Blehs. hmms. I din change much lahs. Just dun really expect much frm my future now. After so much things, just realised that everything is so unpredictable. Not trying to be pessimistic here. hmms. oh wells. All I asked fer is a simple n peaceful life. haha. And so wher do I go after jc? hmms. hopefully, I can get into an uni. SMU seems so out of reach. Alas fer me. I'm always having such high expectations of myself. And after uni? hmms. find wrk bahs. Haha. I used to think of getting married right after studies 'cause I'm veri sick of life as a student. And wana stay hm n enjoy life. bLehs. crazy old me. oh wells. no office wrk fer me. That will bore me to death. haha. I need excitement in my life =D haha. And after that? hmms. Decide to wrk till sumone's willing to take up the burden of taking care of me. haha. Or till I haf earn enuff to stay hm n enjoy my life. *shrugs* Haha. As compared to mine, my fren's future plan is so much detailed, so much full of ambition. Haha. Oh wells. To me, simplicity is beauty.

Gona go mugging soon. Hehehs. I will get my As n Bs fer mid yrs! * xin gives nerdy look* Haha.

`i really really miss you so.

Root canaling Day 1

Finally been to the dentist to start on my treatment. Hmms. Wus freaking out even before I wus in the room. Sumhow, my fear of pain is growing lahs. Hmms. Shan't gross you ppl out with the details. Am expected to experience pain tonight. argh. Sucky. =(

Sch's fine todae. hmms. I survived thru maths tutorial. haha. My whole grp practically just slacked. We were guessing each other's pri n sec schs. haha. Reali bo liao. =Pp. Oh yarhs. PE wus torturous. I forgot tt my gastrics ain't that well recently, n had overdose of chilli. argh. And ended up having serious cramps after 800m warmup jog. Me n flor purposely overtook 'ermhmm'. Haha. She seemed to haf a hard time catching up cause we were quite fast. Haha. This will teach her to underestimate us. =Pp

Oh wells. Also kept myself busy wif this nice personality test book that my hellmate brought fer me. hmms. Quite accurate. Esp fer me. I am unique. Haha. As in being half taurus n Gemini. =D

Taurus ~Those born under the sign of Taurus are represented by the bull, an animal known for its resolute stubbornness. *heex.. I dun deny this* It’s your defining characteristic, in both positive and negative ways. At your best, you’re determined, persistent and enduring; you’re a reliable and trusted ally. You like your way of doing things – you’ve been doing it that way for years and wouldn’t think of doing otherwise. You’ve set a steady routine in life; people could set a clock by you and your habits. But your stubbornness also means you’re highly resistant to change. You tend to be inflexible in your habits and your beliefs, which others might find offputting.

Strengths~Placid, down-to-earth, patient, stable, stalwart, sensible and charming

Weakness~Obstinate, stingy, overbearing, plodding, self-indulgent, possessive, materialistic and conservative

Your love life~Afraid of being hurt, you don’t enter into relationships lightly, but because of your strong desire for emotional security when you do commit, you commit for life. *veri true norhs* As a result, you tend to hang on too long after a relationship has run its course. The biggest threat to your romantic happiness is your jealousy and possessiveness *used to be lidat..but now..duno lehs.. I haf learn to let go ler bahs; whatever will be, will be*, which partners may find it stifling. Learn to let go a little and allow your mate some independence which you could learn to enjoy too. A breath or two of fresh air can only revitalize your relationship. You also tend to seek out relationships that can offer you security, but there needs to be passion in the mix as well.*bingo!!* You’re a sensual person; you deserve a lover who can ignite the smoldering flames within you.

Gemini~Like their namesake Twins, Geminis aren’t easily pigeonholed. In fact, you resist being labeled at all costs. You’re innately curious, and you love exploring and trying new things – often more than one at a time. A gifted, lively dilettante, you’re always eager to learn a new skill, take on a new challenge, try a new restaurant. You’re on a lifelong quest for constant simulation, and you get bored easily. *xin nods violently*

Strengths~Witty, versatile, entertaining, progressive, quick-witted, vivacious, inquisitive

Weakness~Scattered, fickle, unpredictable

Your love life~Because even you need a relationship that has some common ground, you should find an intellectually stimulating partner who shares some but not all of your interests and opinions. You need some discussion and arguments to keep the passion alive; otherwise you;ll be tempted to look outside of the relationship time and again. You’re an incurable flirt, and your partner will need to be understanding and forgiving of your wandering eye. But in turn, you must learn to be more constant and warmer, and to show your partner exactly how you’re feeling. And stop flirting with every attractive stranger that catches your eye. *hey hellmate.. I m no incurable flirt lorhs. I dun flirt liaos. Haha. at least nt on purpose=Pp*

Hmms. before I end off this long n crappy post. Hmms. Must thank my beloved hellmate QUEK PEILING fer walking n sheltering me frm the rain out of sch today. *hugs* Thank yew GORGEOUS! =D

`i miss you badly, do you know that?

new blogskin !!

wee! new blogskin. Nice right? but I haf got probs wif the template which explains why ther is the error thing appearing when u access my blog. So sorry ppl. BABA!! help me pls?!!

Oh wells. Ain't in the best of moods today. Am feeling rather down. Perhaps, 'cause of the bad chairing of the hclub meeting bahs. I do not make a gd pres. I sux at chairing meetings. Haish. *shrugs* Plus, today wus pretty tiring fer me. Duno why. Perhaps its just fatigue bahs.

Just gotten off the phone wif nessa. Hmms. Listened to her 'complaints'. Aiya. Not really complaints lahs. Just listened to her probs lorhs. Hmms. Girl, I only got one thing to say to you. Just be yourself. In fact, all these probs are pretty minor. Just think positive. You know, sumtimes, I just wished I cld be you. So carefree. I miss that feeling.

hmms. Think I pissed Jer off over the phone today. hais. Din mean to do it on purpose. Sorry dear. Am really too tired. Hope you'll at least try to understand alittle? hmms. I am really sorry. Sincerely apologetic fer my tone. Sorry.

Haven been really happy recently. Dun understand why exactly so myself. hmms. Just gt this emptiness in me whenever I am all alone. Hmms. todae did a personality test. "what is ur personality color?" I am "green". And the analysis fer my color matches completely wif my personality. Amazing isnt it? hmms. Fear of being alone. Yarhs. Thats so ME! hmms. N Green ppl tends to think alot. Are emotional. Risktakers. Greens are the ppl whu will take the blame on themselves even if the other party is at fault. *peiling n I agreed on this strongly* N yada yada. hmms. duno why I haf that stupid fear oso. Frens tell me that I ain't considered alone when I am attached. hmms. true to a certain extent. But being attached doesn't mean that I can be ard my guy 24/7 right? He needs his own space too mahs. N sumtimes, I've got this feeling that he's much happier when he's with his frens rather than being with me. So why bother? *shrugs* Perhaps, its the thoughts that cross my mind when I m all alone. dumb tots. I tend to think too much. thats what ppl sae. But is that really true? I duno it myself. hais. I m weird. haha.

Hais. Am feeling really cranky right now. I need a hug badly right now. =(

=)

Hmms. Haven been updating fer quite sumtime lers. Been pretty busy with the lifeless jc schlife. Seriously lahs. jc life excluding my great galfrens, the other aspects are just so sucky. argh. =( hmms. all you do is MUG n MUG n MUG n MUG n MUG NON-STOP! what kind of life is that? I hate routines. -__-

Nth much is happening in my life bahs. hmms. urms.. must thank my dear fer spending yesterday with me. It wus our 100th day together! wee. haha. alrights. paiseh. din really haf anething planned. But yarhs, I love you most! =D

This sat is 'meet the parents cum higher ed day'. Boring to the max lahs. Hmms. its lyke taking up my whole daytime lorhs. What a waste of precious time! haha. I din intend to spend it on quality studying lahs, you all shld noe. =Pp

Oh wells. geog field trip is cancelled lers. but the bad news is I will be having a lot of geog tutorials. argh. hais. hmms. oh wells. gotten the timetable fer a lvls papers liaos. I oni hafta go fer six days n my last paper is on 16th Nov. WEE!! lala~ so hapi.. haha.. I can't wait! haha. oh wells. I m goin bonkers lers after all the stress. Going off to rest lers. haven been slping much lately=(

`sum things are meant to be left unspoken.

april's fool day

Before I start on my random rambling of my boring life, I wld to wish all..

"Hapi April's Fool Day !!"

Alrights. I serious dun lyke the idea of being treated lyke a fool lahs. haha. not tt I ain't sporting enuff to accept jokes. But the idea of being treated tt way just puts me off. Duno why oso. *shrugs* ONI ONE PERSON ATTEMPTED TO TRICK ME AND SUCCEEDED TODAE. argh. alrights. but since I am a nice person. I shall forgive that special sumone =D

Let me blog abt ysd first bahs. Got darwin mass buffet last night. Not really a success. But we did haf fun, din we? haha. The food wus alright, just that there were too little varieties. okok. I shldnt haf such high expectation fer sth I oni paid five bucks fer. There were alot of ppl whu came fer free lahs. tsktsktsk. =P hmms. Mass dance n fun dance were fun!! 'Cause of my beloved hellmate, PEILING!! she is so gorgeous, sexy n hot=D haha. oops. alittle too much details=P haha. BUT! Its all facts=D Another funny thing at the mass buffet, Spidey tried to trick us wif his card tricks. haha. But they dun wrk on me. I think I am a curse in his life. Blehs. aww.. so sad..=Pp After buffet, waited fer leen. Den me, flor, peipei, leen, baba n cassie went Mac to haf desserts. Haha. We were noise pollutants ther lahs. Had lotsa fun ther. Haha. =D

Now fer todae. Went clementi meet leen fer Kbox. So fun lahs!! haha. long time nv K liaos. Miss the feeling of singing ther mans. haha. Took sum nicenice pics ther. haha. Had so much fun wif leen todae. must go again soon!! haha.

Den went back Wdls to meet Jer. hmms. Miss him so much lahs. hmms. Watch ultraviolet. FINALLY lahs. haha. hmms. nth much to do at cwp den Jer met up wid his fren. Had to cum hm early eventually cuz Jer's daddy wans him hm. Sobs. =( Wei.. I hope u really din open up the envelope lahs. Else..else.. I really really wun tok to you ever again de lorhs.. >.<

" Love is not abt the moments that you share wif your other half, but about the no. of moments that take your breath away."

Dying alrdy

I seriously am beginning to hate my dentist more and more. Argh. The painkillers he gave dun work on me! argh. I am hurting lyke shit right now. And I really can't take it anemore ler lorhs. Its really painful. Not normal pain lorhs. Its a sharp pain that hits ur nerves, making you feel lyke dying. If you understand how I am feeling, that is. =(

Hmms. Din go sch todae. Wus hurting real bad fer the whole dae. Painkillers just dun wrk on me. Duno why. argh. Can't even smile properly w/o feeling pain. This sucks seriously. hais. And by missing sch todae. I kinda missed alot of stuffs. My first hclub miting this yr. Gp presentation. hse meeting too. Sianned. And I had to get updated by others. =(

I M DYING! the pain is killing me. nt that i love crying, but the pain is really too much fer me to take. There is no one ard fer comfort. No one here fer me. =( argh.

Hopeless liaos.

=( Am in PAIN now. argh. My tooth hurts badly now. Haven been to the dentist yet. Kinda regretted nt going lahs. But urms. hais. Duno lahs. Not really feeling all that great and happy today. 'Cause my toothache is killing me. I even had to sit out fer PE. 'Cause it's causing a terrible headache as well. Hais. Lyke what Mrs Wee, my PE teacher, said to me, a toothache is no kidding. Serious lorhs. Its no minor case. It actually affects u as a whole. I hate PAIN! argh. though this can help me lose weight. But I wana lose weight PAINlessly. haha. Vanity again.

Todae is a boring schday. Sumhow, it din feel lyke one. I am kinda in hols mood. Duno why. Got back maths *i flunk it bad* , phy geog * I gt a B!!* , econs mcq *i PASSED on the dot* Haha. I shall be dying another two more times fer my econs drq n essays. Woohoo. Ran two rounds fer PE before I surrendered. haha. Den stupid FEI called me a slacker. As though I wana slack fer PE lidat lorhs. Napha cuming lers. I dun dare. haha. Dun wana history to repeat itself. I am a GEOG student. Okays. Thats rather lame. Blehs. I am seriously dying of the pain. Gona go rest lers. Guess I wun be able to get to slp tonite liaos. Sianned.

` I just needed sumone to be ther fer me

=(

BAD NEWS!! fer me that is. =( daddy wans me to go to my dentist asap. argh. I dread it mans. Dun lyke goin alone. Sobs. =,(

Its freaking to be inside that small confined place all alone. I am not claustrophobic. But its still freaking lahs. =( *xin shivers at the tot of it* hmms. everything sucks at the dentist except the xray of my tooth. Thats the oni cool part. Heex.

I DUN WANA GO ALONE. sobs.

Judgement Day's tml

Alrights. Since peipei n wquan both requested fer me to permablog here. And so, I shall. Haha. Hmms. This weekend nth much happening. Went watch Failure to launch on Fridae before going to home to celebrate sis's bday. Had an ultralong meeting before that lahs. It wus just crapping. Craps. And more craps. Gona haf our first hclub reunion on the coming wednesday! Wonder how many ppl will turn up. Really hope that the turnup rate will be good.=)

Argh. these few days haf been not veri enjoyable fer me. Not tt it wus nt enjoyable at all. Just tt I din get the max enjoyment. 'Cause of my stupid tooth. Argh. this sucks lahs. Its hurting again. After four bloody yrs and its giving me the same prob again. Hmms. Alrights. I shld haf gone straight back to my dentist fer sum checkup. But I din. 'Cause I alrdy knew whats instored fer me liaos. This stupid tooth has been lyke costing me alot lahs. Hundreds after hundreds. Mum last time actually asked me to get it plucked out. Heheh. You all shld know me well lahs. This type of request, mite as well as me go die lorhs. First, I HATE the sensation of pain, esp in this case. Second, I dun lyke to a empty space inside my mouth. Guess what stupid reason I told my mum last time. I actually told her that fer the sake of my singing future, I shld just go fer the op. haha. Dun get it? Singing future = choir. haha. I shall wait till the pain starts murdering me, den I shall go see the dentist. For sum reasons, I HATE dentists. Long stories.. hais.. my sad sad past.. =P

Tml is Judgement Day!! Geez.. First time in history that you ever seen teachers being so efficient. Hmms. This time round, I am not greedy. I just wana PASS!! *prays hard* Hey. I am really scared lehs. Completely lack of confidence this time rd. What happened to my confidence?!! argh. alrights. Shall be optimistic. I WILL PASS!! and what if I dun? heh. *shrugs*

alrights. Ending here. hmms. oh yarhs. nearly forgot. Hapi sch reopening to Jer! haha. here cums ur torturous schdays as well. Gd luck to you if your results are cuming too =) love ya lots!=)

One last paper . . .

Hmms. Realised that I have been neglecting this blog of mine for alittle bit too much. Haha. Anewae, kinda feel lyke updating here todae. Kinda decided to leave the more emo stuffs fer this blog and the nt-so-emo stuffs fer the other blog. Dun question me on why the hell am I having two blogs. 'Cause I duno the answer myself. =S *shrugs*

Oh wells. Am having my last paper tomorrow. Human Geography. How fun~! *alrights. I do sound sarcastic* haha. I am stil trying to psycho myself into loving the subjects I take. Hmms. Just now wus trying to fall aslp in the evening but got woken up by minghong. He wanted to ask me go learn dance wif him. Haha. True lahs. I love dance. But right now, though I really wanna go fer what I want, time doesn't really permits me to do so. Haish. Wells, too bad lorhs.

Sians. Tml is sis's bday. Haha. Had a pleasant surprise planned fer her lers. Think she'll be veri touched and hapi. haha. I m so nice. Haha. Blehs. Oh wells. Gotta go slp lers. I nid my energy to go wild after my paper tml. Wahaha. Blehs. =P

Mere Updating..

Stupid gu asked me to update. And here I am. I'm proud to announce tt I m FULLY recovered!! Wee!! U ppl can nv understand the joy tts in me right nw. It feels great to be well again!! haha. Alright. I know.. I know.. It all boils dwn to vanity. Blehx.

Oh wells. Peipei dey all asked to do this interesting test. And here's my results.

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Low
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Low
Lust:	Medium
Pride:	High

Discover Your Sins - Click Here

Hmm.. Wells.. Its kinda accurate lah. haha. But then again, pride dun always get me dwn lah. Sumtimes, it does, I can't deny that fact. But not all the time. Haha.

Been feeling kinda cranky lately. Been thinking too much, I think. Got sum questions in me, that I haf been longing to ask sum ppl. But din haf the courage to. Hah. But sumtimes, I really feel lyke finding out. Not as though, getting the answer would mean anething la. But..perhaps..its just.. emm.. curiosity? Perhaps bah.. =S

hmm.. Love this quote frm eileen's blog:

"Men always want to be a woman's first love, while women like to be a man's last romance."

Quite true.. Hmm.. Think most females out there think the same way too. But then again.. after all tt I haf been thru.. hmm.. A man's last romance? Hard to cum abt, unless the relationship is really based on pure true love. *shrugs* One can always wish, can't I? haha.

Gona end this entry wif this nicenice quote..

"It's not who you are to the world, it's who you are to me. It's not how many times I say I love you... it's how much I really do."

Common test Stress

Its a nicenice Sunday! Hmm.. Actually intended to go swimming this morn but my headache seemed to b getting worse. Sobs. Hmm.. Had been having headache since I reached hm last night. Jialat. Hmm.. Let me update arh.. hmm.. I gt oni an A2 fer chinese. Which is darn disappointing. alright. alright, I haf high expectations of myself even though I din bothered to study fer my exams at all. Hmm.. meanwhile, I haf decided to turn ova a new leaf. haha. Dun luff leh. I m trying horx! haha.

Ysd went out wif Jer. Hmm. Went buy tix fer 'i nt stupid too' n ' final destination3'.Den went lib to study. But basically wus juz wasting time ther lo. haha. hmm.. the movies r okay la. but Final dest3 wus.. abit gross n sadistical. haha. I m nt a sadistic person but no choice fer me la, since my boyfren enjoys such shows. haha.

hmm.. Just nw went to read ster's blog n her 'bro' 's blog. hmm. Realised how familiar the situation is. Ster!! u stil rmb tt I haf been thru the exact same thing? Except mine wus more complicated? haha. seriously, this is too much of a coincidence sia. hmm.. Here's my advice to you, my dear gurl, hmm.. dun get too close to him becuz of sympathy. Its gona make things worse. Just show concern, but nt too much. N b firm abt ur stand. hmm.. you'll get ur letter in the nxt few daes. =)

Gona go mugging ler.. haha..

`Gd luck fer your exams, dear. Jiayou, dear!=)

hapi bdae to my gorgegous peipei

Before I start on my nonsensical entry. Gona wish my darn gorgeous PeipEi a hapi birthdae. Hope tt you're reali touched by the photocollage. Reali nice ritex? heheh. =D

alright. A cranky dae, it has been. Haha. Wusn't reali myself todae. Haha. I m NOT usually cranky d horx. hmm. Lessons were ok lah but I wus feeling rather slpy fer the whole time. Heh. Todae is the last day of my translation course!! haha. So hapi!! todae veri funny la. the lecturer tried to hynoptise us n Peipei juz fell aslp lorhx. She wus caught on video! haha.

Tried to distract Peipei while flor n leen went to get the nicenice collage fer her. But ended up, I kinda fumbled n nearly gav the show awae. Opps. Hw blur can I get? hehehx. N susu n cassie were luffin their heads off at me. sobs. oh wells. Peipei wus touched, i guess. How can she nt be? haha. Its reali nice lah. Went lot one fer dinner. Felt kinda bored after eating. So Peipei suggested playing sum sort of couple game which tests ur understanding of ur partner. haha. So me n my hellmate paired up. Leen wif flor. n cassie wif susu. alas, the questions all reali jialat. esp those asked by peipei. Me luff till stomach nearly cramp sia. N we were attracting quite alot of attention ther. guess we were ABIT too loud lah. haha. but veri fun lo. my hellmate juz rawks!! heex.

oh ya! one sad thing of the dae!! the icecream man is gone!! stupid principal. Whu said icecream is unhealthy?!! Mite as well take awae the vending machines. Aiya. Close the canteen lah. Oh ya. Mite as well ban eating. wat the hell. I HAF NO ICECREAM TO EAT IN SCH FRM TODAE ONWARDS. tts reali sad, kays? =( argh. hate the principal.=(

tml is the dae! wahahaha. hmm. tts nt an evil luff. its my crankiness acting up again. I m worried too ok? ppl r expecting me to do well fer chinese. i wana do well too. perhaps i shld go into hiding if i dun get my aim. hah. Worried dead rite nw. Wish my dear is here to hug me n make me feel better..=/

`i reali miss u..

Worn out.

I m sosososo tired. Had a pretty long dae todae. Feeling darn worn out nw. Sobs. I reali need my dear ard, to lend me his shoulders to lean on. hais. oh wells. Had two tests todae; both of which, I din study at all. haha. *shrugs* tts lyke.. emm.. nth new? heh.

PE wus rather exhausting. Esp when we r playing under the scorching hot sun. I tink I am sunburnt.Hmm.. Yea.. U din see wrongly. I haf gotten sunburnt. Whu saes tanned ppl cant get sunburnt? Blehx. I m one living proof. =P Den, left sch wif Peipei, whu wus darn worried abt me. Hah. I wusn't goin to cry lah. Juz tt bcux the sun wus too strong, thus, my face wus darn red. Hah. Chatted abt sum stuffs on our wae to lot one. Peipei treated me to my fav flavour of bubbletea n we continued chatting at the foodcourt. N tts wher I saw Js n gang. Peipei thinks he's cute! *ster!! see?!!* ha. his gravity-defying hair is so funny la. But I'm used to seeing it le, thus I dun luff upon seeing him ard, unlyke whenever I see Christopher walking ard wif his small backpack n his badminton racket hanging at the wrong place. haha. Its a real funny sight. Really. I really din mean to luff d. =P haha.

Two more daes to the release of A lvls results. Tink I'm getting back my chinese n proj wrk results den too. haha. Kinda looking forward to it. hmm. Am praying fer my dear seniors, shawn, peixi, samuel korkor, etcetc. But they're reali smart. So yarh, dun even tink I needa worry fer them at all. Haha. I shld worry fer myself, i tink. Hah. Just wish tt ther will b sumone ard to share my joy/disappointment den. hais.

Beginning to worry alot fer my common tests now. argh. shall start studying after tml. Mug hard, I shall.=)

`i m missing u alot.

hapi bdae to Peipei *my gorgeous hell mate*

random-ness

Wus staring at my econs hwk sum moments ago. Now online chatting wif desmond. Juz feel lyke blogging. Din do much stuffs at home todae. Wus either practising on my keyboard.. or eating.. hah. Growing fatter ler. argh.

oh wells. hah. Had a bad dream this morn. hais. Can't help thinking abt it. The sense of inferior-ness n fear of losing him is back. duno why. *shrugs* He's the best thing tt eva happened to me. Its the first time, i eva fell so deeply in love fer sumone right frm the start. But, all these feel lyke a dream. Really. He's too good fer me lerx. sumhow, I feel that I can never be good enuff fer him. I m a lousy girlfren, wif the imperfections n all. hais. if given a chance, I will choose never to wake up frm this dream.

Common tests are cuming le. But, I dun feel prepared at all this time round. Duno how am I goin to survive thru a lvls. Feel lyke goin back to the lib to mug. i miss sum of my lib frens. miss the security guards. miss the peaceful environment. miss running fer seats. hah. tink i mite pop by soon.

Tink I am juz feeling stressed out. haha. Sorry if I'm not being myself lately. Will cheer up soon. Gona go slp le. Tml's goin b a long dae. hais. `stay wif me please.

juz a stupid random update.

Its been a long time since I last blogged here. Kinda miss this blog. Too bad, I can't find my old blogskin. argh. sickening. ahh wells. this is meaningful as well=)

Hmm.. Juz gt a sudden urge to blog here. Cuz most of my memories r here. whether hapi or sad. Ysd, I wus browsing thru; gt reminded of sum memories. sum so dear to my heart, sum yet so heartwrenching. hais.

Recently, I juz feel so stressed out. argh. this is my first encounter wif such a case. N sumhow, the emotions tt I am goin thru right nw, seems so familiar. So familiar to wat I haf been thru during my last breakup. *shrugs* I duno why either. Perhaps, its cuz I reali do treasure her alot. as in, I reali do treasure all my frenships d lahx. My tearglands haf been overly active recently. Haven been crying fer so long le. Nt tt I miss the feeling. haha. I dun lyke to cry lah. haha. but juz feel tt if I juz kip deceiving myself tt I m really ok when I m not at all, I will end up feeling much worse. hais.

Seriously, I am shocked at such a situation occuring in my life. I haf nv had such a prob wif ane of my frens before. Nv before. This is juz so weird lahx. Its lyke.. its happening fer no obvious reasons. I hate such cold wars. Its torturous, stupid, n reali hurting. argh. todae, after the klaz's celebration fer susu, I juz stoned in the canteen, refusing to eat, cuz I reali din haf the mood nor appetite to. shocking uh? hah. *shrugs* leen wus probing la n asking me if I m goin to leave things as it is. I duno why. but, tears juz automatically welled up. *i m nt pms-ing! hah* argh. JS wus near my area, I din wana cry in front of him again, I ran to the nearest toilet, wif leen chasing after me. In the toilet, she wus trying to comfort me, but no use d la. all the worse, I cried. ha. told her to leave me alone fer sumtime but leen wus worried abt me. hah. nt as though I'll kill myself or anething. o.O" juz needed sum time to calm myself dwn lo. hah. hmm. Am pretty ok now. =)

`I juz wana b hapi.

www.livejournal.com/users/bluesaway this is my new blogsite....... dun complain to me tt i din update! bleh.. =P

back back back~

Me back! Me back!

hmm.. back frm camp n chalet.. haha.. Its been lotsa fun!! haha.. Orientation's gona b a blast! whooo! I lub my clan! haha.. We're gona b the best clan ard!!

Chalet-wise.. haha.. Had fun as well.. Went crazy wid ster, hong n jer.. haha.. FUn fun Fun! haha.. Ate too much lerx.. tink i gained lotsa weight! Die.. haha... its FAT ACCUMULATION fer the past few daes.. muz go on diet soon.. haha..

hmm.. Now awaits Orientation! its gona b a whole new great yr ahead! woohoo! HAPPY NEW YEAR ppl!

!!!

Updates!! haha.. Been awae fer quite sum time ler, i realised. haha. Well.. i juz cum back frm my club chalet. Supposed to b back ysd de, but i had another fun dae out wif sumone special mahx.. Its been a great past four daes.. haha..

I muz sae the club chalet wus pretty much of a success. Ther wus lotsa bonding, craps. Hmm.. Had mahjong n xboxing lo. haha.. fer three daes straight oni slp few hrs n pia mahjong all the wae.. haha.. The bbq wus fun too! Lotsa nicee food.. n its the first time i helped out lo. haha.. dedicated my first time to my club.. bleh.. Gona haf another chalet nxt yr!! +D

hmm.. ysd.. after checking out frm chalet, cum hm n bathe.. then went out to mit jer ler..Went watch 'perhaps love'. Lyke wat flor said, it definitely evokes emotions in me.. haha. but i din cry horx. it wus a great movie. i lub its musical style of acting. the songs are nice. the plot is simply great =D after the movie, weent town walk walk.. saw sum of jer's frenx. then after tt, weent nite safari. haha.. it wus fun la. Saw alot of nice nice animals.. But too bad, i din get to seee my flying squirrels.. cuz i wus too late.. After nite safari, i din reali feel lyke goin hm.. so went midnite kboxing.. haha.. jer nearly dragged me to play pool instead.. haha. then.. weent slacked at coffeeshp cuz i dun wana wastee money taking cab home la.. Wasted a lot of money ysd lerx.. haha.. hmm.. yar.. then todae, tis morn ard 8 then reeached hm.. haha.. both of us weree pigging out on the bus on the wae hm la.. wee weree simply worn out.. haha.. den.. that gong gong, seent me hm.. but he so blur, forgot to take his passport n dcam.. den i had to rushed dwnstairs.. before he takes the bus to the customs.. heeng ar.. haha..had lots of fun!! whee..

i m definitely looking forward to thee end of yr chalet.. haha.. Gona haf MORE fun!! haha.. =D

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I m so in love wif you !!

Geez.. Ysd wus the best dae of my life *winkx* Went do flag dae in the morn wif Ster, hong, n zin.. Saw alot of other pioneers as well.. haha.. it wus great fun.. despite sum rejections.. haha.. Me n Zin finali bury the hatchet ler.. haha.. two years nv tok.. We can still crap lyke nobody's business.. haha.. But then.. We were still bickering fer the whole dae..haha.. as usual lahx..

After Flag day.. cuz me waiting fer jer.. I dragged them to take neoprints wif me.. haha.. Took twice.. haha.. It wus fun!! haha.. Went in search of food wif them.. then.. jer called.. So ster accompanied me to go find him at the cinema area.. haha... He looked so dashing lah! haha.. emm.. i meant his clothes.. So formal ! haha.. n his hairstyle.. Geez.. haha.. Well.. Ster agreed tt he reaLi veri TALL.. haha.. yea..

Bought the tix fer SAW2.. haha.. Went yoshinoya slacked fer one hr plus.. haha.. Crapped alot.. The food ther wusnt reali nice lah.. but it wus the oni place.. which wus peaceful enuff fer us to chat.. haha.. Hmm.. jer wanted to go play pool.. but i dun wan to throw face in front of a professsional.. so din agree.. haha.. Hmm.. wad to sae lehx? Jer.. is so darn sweet.. haha.. hmm.. the Movie itself.. hmm.. wus a quite a disappointment.. fer two reasons.. haha.. no 1. it wus nt as gd as the first one.. no 2. one of the characters has a sucky name.. *bleh* oh wells.. though the movie wusnt tt great.. it wus made enjoyable by jer.. haha..+D love ya so.. Wus abit guilty cuz he wus late fer his alumni dinner so tt he cld send me home.. heex.. =)

Alright.. hopefully nxt week still can see him again.. lOl

Hmm.. gotta go rest ler.. i m stil sick.. In fact, i m unable to tok properly.. ITZ NT SEXY VOICE AT ALL!! throat hurts.. sobx.. buais ..

*sickx*

Sick again.. Hais.. Aiya.. juz due to exhaustion.. Had overwrked too much recently.. Poor health.. *shrugs..*

oh wells.. Life's been pretty fine, i muz sae.. Peaceful n quiet.. Kinda settled dwn once again.. Regaining my normal quiet life.. =) Perhaps this is wat suits me best bahx.. i simply luv the peace.. haha.. though the sense of loneliness is inevitable.. But ther are always gd frenz whu nv fails to b ther fer me =D Thanks pplx..

Recently.. Wrked as a carnival coordinator wif my frenz.. hmm.. tough wrk.. low pay.. argh! anewae i gained a whole new experience.. n realised tt office wrk is darn boring! haha.. Wrking in an office is definitely worse off than studying.. haha.. oh wells.. i guess.. office wrk is juz nt fer me bahx.. haha.. I miss the hotel ppl ! ! *sobx* hais.. Miss the exciting n fun experiences ther.. miss sloggin thru late nights together.. miss the fun n laughters tt we share.. hopefully.. i still can regain all that too.. soon bahx.. Well.. the carnival job.. helped me make new frenz too.. haha.. nt bad la.. except the unreasonable scoldings.. n the LOW PAY! haha..

tml going back to sch.. to get my stuffs n collect my holidae hwk.. heheh.. oh wells.. i reali wish tml wun rain! heex.. i miss the sun! Geex.. i beta get goin... i nid my rest badly.. tata~

updates..

Hmm.. long long time nv update ler.. haha.. been veri busy.. haha.. let me update one dae by one dae.. dun read if u tink itz boring.. haha..

Mondae.. Had OP.. haha.. veri fun.. everyone wus so tense n worried.. oh yar.. i sacrificed my BRAND NEW black clog shoes to tt hazel.. hmmph.. so sad lah.. after pw.. we went slack at canteen awhile.. before deciding to go liyi's place fer another movie session.. Watched freaky fridae.. haha.. it wus nice to watch it another time.. wif great frenz.. hmm.. after which me n peipei went lot1 n did sth stupid.. haha.. the hello kitty rox ok?

Tues.. did nth much.. Basically stayed hm to do the klaz video thing..

Wednesdae.. Went sch early in the morn fer geog.. Told tt ther is gona b a trip to australia nxt yr.. Nt reali tt excited lah.. Cux sum bitch is goin too.. ha.. Oh wells.. after geog.. went iceskating wif susu..leen.. peipei.. it wus so fun lah.. alot of nice nice things happened.. i love the Bdae song.. though it wusnt dedicated to me.. i love the bubbles.. !! but guess.. the gurls went hm kinda crippled? haha..

Thursdae.. Had to go sch in the morn to hand in report.. after which.. we went lot one eat lunch.. then went hm rest.. Before i cld rest.. Gracie called me up to go shopping.. haha.. Went along lorh.. she did the shopping.. me juz hang ard.. haha.. then went fer klaz bbq.. Ate alot.. haha.. n Played alot too.. the truth n dare part wus darn nice lah.. i oso kena sum embarrassing act.. haha.. i love peipei fer her guts! n oh poor tim.. whu wus blushing lah.. haha..

Todae.. Went sch fer geog lesson.. then during the lesson.. suddenly gt the urge to go kbox.. So after which.. me went wif flor n leen.. flor is kinda kena forced de.. haha.. it wus fun lah.. we went crazy.. haha. ohya.. we got cheated of EIGHT bucks fer sum awful drink ... yuckx..

Anewae.. muz reali go find work ler.. else.. my expenses is goin to get me bankrupt.. haha ohwells.. me gona go ler.. Going to slp.. had a tiring nite ysd.. buaiz..

Wunderful dae *lalala*

Wunderful dae.. *lalala*

Went sch early in the morn fer proj work.. Then.. took alot of photos..heheh.. Been up to no good lately.. On a secret mission.. shhh.. heez.. Oh wells.. after everyone finish their rehearsals.. We went to lotone as a klaz.. except sum whu had sth on.. hmm.. oh well.. Muz agree wif tim.. tt itz wus indeed sort of a miracle.. but hey.. we realised tt our klaz is actuali quite bonded de lorh =D

Ordered alot of food.. i guess i freaked alot of ppl out.. haha.. sorry ppl.. i wus reali starving.. hehe.. but Clement wus worse kays? hahah.. then went arcade slack.. then ended up renting movies n went to liyi's place to watch.. haha.. i luff till i stomach pain sia.. though we were watching horror.. haha.. Cant blame me.. i m immuned.. n the gurls were reali funny lah.. Shall nt disclose too much details.. heheh..

hmm.. oh wells.. itz late ler.. tml going out in the morn.. Now.. going to bed.. the next movie marathon will b on mondae.. haha..

281005

hmm.. oh wells.. juz updating as promised.. hmm.. todae 05Ao7's evil plan din reali succeed.. so sad.. hah.. anewae.. we had fun still.. Everyone else turn up w/o their bags.. except emmhmm..n emmhmm.. n mE!.. gosh.. hai wo hafta leave my bag wif ahh long.. hah.. oh wells.. he supported our plan! ha..

todae wus the farewell assembly fer mr kwek.. our fatherly founder.. hais.. it wus a saddening ceremony.. i wus tearing thruout the assembly la.. hais.. hmm.. the performance put up by the BEACH BOYS rawkz! hah.. i wus screaming lyke hell la.. hah.. their acapella wus professionally good.. though guohao wus standing lyke a block of wood.. hah.. they are so POWEr la..

hmm.. after sch.. went to ogl miting.. shucks.. i m feeling damn bad nw la.. my ogl camp clash wif my chalet at the end of year.. i tink i m goin to get killed by minghong liao.. shucks.. die ler la... hais..

Gona go watch tv.. buaiz..

271005

hmm.. long time nv blog ler.. now den i realised.. hah.. anewae.. Gotten back my promos results.. hmm.. Did okay la.. but nw still waiting fer my promotional status.. itz still pending.. we shall wait n see bahx.. hah.. oh wells.. i haf made it thru the ogl selection trial.. ha.. so cool la.. when i checked the list of the shortlisted ppl.. i realised my whole grp actuali has gotten thru as well.. hah.. so hapi.. Can see them again.. >.<

ahh wells.. todae had my first OP rehearsal.. it wus.. emm.. disastrous in sum sense.. cuz my whole grp wus unprepared.. hah.. Made a fool out of ourselves.. *bleahx* ahh wells.. we'll definitely improve wif more practices.. i believe.. hah...

Think tml.. is the farewell assembly fer my principal.. ha.. Heard tt he is moving ova to NYJC.. hah.. Duno wat tml will be lyke.. ha.. In fact, i m looking forward to tml.. cuz 05A07 has an evil plan.. *hurhur* Shall blog again tml abt it.. =)

~tata...

Bad dae.. =(

I m reaLi sad lah.. though i shldnt b.. hais.. but hey! i haf gt feelings fer my club k? I've put in lotsa efforts n time into my club.. unlyke sum ppl.. oh weells.. i dun care.. i m appealing!! i cant juz see my club becum lidat.. itz nt FAIR! We are impt figures too.. I M APPEALING!! i m nt going to sit back n let this be.. lyke sum asshole.. hah.. anewae.. i noe i wus kinda rude when tt asshole wus making his hypocritical speech.. HAHA... Since when did u ever contribute? wat a joke! haha.. this morn.. tt asshole wus making sum announcements which i din reali hear.. cuz i heard alot of commotion..haha.. ppl were displeased to see such things on stage bahx.. wahaha..

anewae.. i seriously LOVE my club.. I wldnt be whu i m now..without my club.. I wldnt noe how to lead.. hw to organise events.. hw to plan events.. all these.. are valuable lessons i learnt frm the club.. =)

Humanities Club will rock on.. Believe me..

~ 05A07 rawkZ ~

05A07 rawkx!!

haha.. my klaz cheered me up during PE lesson!! haha.. wus initially sad after noeing tt itz interklaz between my klaz n that asshole's klaz.. ha.. thanks to clement whu comforted me.. n i very paiseh tt he injured his ankle again.. so sory.. anewae.. we thrashed them badly.. woohoo!! haha.. saw the three bitches' faces turn to shit-color.. haha.. they damn bu shuang lah.. haha.. my klaz gt standard neh.. ha.. anewae.. tt asshole din dare to turn up.. then my klazmates were lyke sarcastically commenting tt he wus a coward.. hah.. seriously.. i tink he wus afraid to lose bahx.. haha..

Few daes back chatted wif jerjer.. hais.. miss him sia.. long time nv mit up liao.. hais.. muz find time to go out one dae.. anewae.. gtg ler.. muz go rest.. todae hyper too much ler.. =)

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hmm.. 15th of October.. this dae, used to b so special.. But this yr.. oh wells.. things are totally different.. Time reali flies.. ha.. One year has passed so faz.. hmm.. anewae.. i dunO lah.. hais.. Juz hope tt he'll haf a nice bdae..

Emm.. Muz apologise to wei.. Duibuqi.. todae nv pei ni go out.. Hmm.. Todae iz nt a gd dae u see? hmm.. anewae, i had fun wif my gd fren, ster.. haha.. Went kBox during mid morn.. haha.. Sing n sing n sing.. haha.. we can sing very well tgr seh.. +D haha.. den we went take nice nice neoprints.. heez..

Juz sth fer u, wei.. I duno how long i will take to forget everything.. Duibuqi..

141005

HAPI BDAE BEN! =D

Oh wells.. todae went sch fer career seminar.. Emm.. Went fer the business de.. hmm.. Heard the same old stuffs again.. Nearly fell aslp.. Duno wat the hell i wus doing ther.. when i wanted to do social work.. Oh wells.. Wus basically fooling ard in the small crowded LT2, n contributing to the noise level.. haha..

hmm.. todae wus the farewell assembly fer the J2s.. Such a sad event.. Shawn delivered the speech, i almoz felt lyke crying liao.. So sad tt they will nt be ard fer us as often liao.. hais.. Oh wells.. life is lidat, i guess. hmm.. Mr. Woolhead very nice!! he sang damn nice lah.. hah.. oh well.. the farewell assembly ended wif the choir leading the sch song.. tt wus the most emotional moment fer everyone bahx.. i almoz cried lorh.. Flor wus ther " ehh Xin! dun cry! save ur tears fer nxt yR! " haha.. ttz provided tt i m promoted.. >.<

hmm after assembly went Visual culture rm wif celest.. she wus doing her proj work.. then me juz slack ther.. haha.. Oh yar! I signed up fer the OGL thingy.. ha.. cuz the whole Pae 05S10 is joining.. haha oh well.. then.. we went eat at mac wif felicia frm SC.. hais.. after listening to wat felicia said.. Her situation seemed so familiar.. but nt as bad as mine.. hah.. Feel so guilty tt i cant reali help much.. but hey, at least she is nt in my shoes.. ttz already very lucky ler..

Todae.. hais.. kip feeling sad.. *nt PMS!* ha.. tmL is tt thing's bdae.. Do i reali hafta care? hais.. oh wells.. forget it.. he wun b bothered anewae.. Gotta go liao.. tired.. tml maeb going kbox wif ster.. den go swimming.. haha.. Buaiz pplz.+)

121005

Todae wusnt a gd dae.. Haha.. Had a reali pissing dae.. hais.. Oh wells.. Tok to nessa, jeff n eric abt it.. hais.. Reali tired liao.. Sick n tired of all these.. I juz wan a gd break frm everything.. So so so tired.. hais.. ARRGH! Wo zhen de hen bu shuang neh.. hais..duno lah..

Anewae, i tot my dae wld brighten up abit after noeing my maths result.. hais.. unfortunately it din.. I oni gt a B.. I m feeling more sad than being elated ova it.. Perhaps i asked too much of myself? perhaps..? *shrugs*

Hais..let me share my stupid dae n at the same time, let me relieve sum anger here.. oh well.. sum asshole msged me laz nite to inform me tt "there is a miting at 2 pm.. agenda is amunching race".. I called up fen.. She told me she din get ane msg.. Neither did von.. Oh fine! he sux.. He din msged ane EXCO member except his gd fren sid n his darling.. hah.. I guess fen understand hw i feel all the time ler bahx.. hais.. oh wells.. den i went sch.. Went ard asking my members regarding their dismissal time.. HA! everyone ends before 1pm.. So yarh.. i went all over the sch to find my exco ppl *cuz i dun haf their no.* n inform them tt miting starts at ONE.. then i asked gim siong to help me tell that asshole n tt gal.. HA! afterwhich oni i realised tt his klas ends at ONE.. but itz oni the lit ppl.. then.. went fer miting.. haha.. waited fer more than half an hr.. asshole din turn up.. HA.. HE DOESNT EVEN TAKE LIT lorh.. n moreever, the miting iz oni fer ppl going fer the chalet.. ASSHOLE.. He shld b the one being punctual norh.. ASSHOle.. ended up me started the miting.. n AT TWO THIRTY.. HA finali he STROLLED IN WIF his wife.. HA! hw interesting.. n noe wat? when gim siong joked " hey u are so early! by an hr plus? " he juz ansed "watever lah".. ASSHOLE! Wat kinda of attitude is tt? arrgh..

Arrgh.. very pissed.. gona go cool off.. else i will reali die..

Itz finaLi all over XD *grins*

Itz OVER!! FINALLY!! YAY!! WHOOPEE!!

FINE!! i noe sum ppl ended ysd.. FINE!! let me go crazy fer once? haha.. oh wells.. todae finali haf my laz paper.. haha.. So hapi.. HAD A GREAT GREAT CELEBRATION wid my darLing vOn.. hmm.. haha.. Oh wells.. We went absolutely crazy todae.. Oh yarh.. i realised, i m becuming more racist ler.. i tink itz tt MOGU's influence.. >.< *bleah* heez.. juz now on the wae hm had a bad experience.. arrgh.. Reali damn pissed lorh.. Haha..

hMm.. tml maeb miting up wif ster.. haha.. see first lorh.. haha.. oh wells.. Promos are finali over.. However, this also means that we haf reached another crossroad of our life.. To stay in jC.. or to choose another route? Hard to choose eh? haha.. i duno lah.. oh wells.. ttz fer me to ponder.. Gona go.. Buaiz.. take care ppl.. HAF FUN!

Two more daEs left..

Wee!! two more daes left ler.. finali.. left two subj. human geog, econs mcq n drq.. Well.. kinda drained out after all these exam stress.. hah.. Dun see me so slack.. i m in fact stressed seeing ppl mugging lorh.. hah.. oh wells.. After each paper, i juz feel a sense of relief.. i cant b bothered to even compare ans or anething.. haha.. wateva lah.. oh wells.. todae's maths paper.. wus kinda easy? hah.. nt as hard as i haf expected it to b..

Went cwp ritee after my paper.. Crashed into minghong whu wus roaming in sportslink, instead of studying.. Hmmhmm.. then he pei wo go buy stuffs.. Den cuz i wus so attracted to this star bracelet frm WATEVER, i simply stop n stared at it.. den suddenly gt ppl poke me.. hah.. Shock tio me lorh.. iT wus peixuan.. She nw working ther.. So coOl! haha.. anewae, she ish becuming prettier n sweeter.. gOsh! hah.. then she mistaken tt mh is my bf.. haha.. i m no cradle snatcher, kays? hah..

Oh wells.. gona get started on econs soon.. heeheez.. buaiz.. wish me luck fer my laz two papers.. =)

Three mOre daEs to frEedOm >.<

Wellwellwell.. todae went sch fer my afternoon geog paper.. Suay norh.. Combine wif the hist paper.. Saw alot of THINGS.. haha.. ok.. i m evil.. oh wells.. the paper wus kinda easy lah.. Juz hopefully tt i will do well this time.. hmm.. Sian lah.. Tml gt THREE hrs of maths.. killer paper.. die liao die liao =( oh wells.. hopefully i can concentrate bahx.. *praying hard*

Three more daes to freedom.. ttz fer me lah.. i noe SUM ppl ends on thurs.. *hmmph* well.. i m already in the post-promos mood liao.. haha..*bigbig grin*

Here is the "TO DO" list fer post promos

1. Go kbox.

2. Go movie marathons

3. Go get a job

4. Meet up wid ster

5. Meet up wif dennis *the tanned yandao* XD

6. Go gaigai wif darLing celest

7. Organise outing fer pri ppl

8. Organise outing fer 04 unzip wif celest

9. Go canoeing/kayaking

10. Go beach suntan!

hmm i guess.. ttz long enuff fer now.. oh wells.. gona mug fer maths now.. haha.. buaiz..

031005

Hmm.. todae had econs paper three.. hah.. essays.. write till hand pain sia.. wells.. miracle.. First time write so much.. heez.. hmm.. well.. i still tink i m goin to flunk it anewae.. cuz i din study much=Pp.. haha.. After econs.. damn relaxed lorh.. bought food n went to concourse to pei yvonne study.. hah.. Saw tt kb wif sum girls.. duno he studying or wat.. hah.. Then.. Von found the place too noisy.. So we went lib.. hais.. bad choice.. saw tt thing n his gf.. diao.. anewae.. We stayed ther.. till cheuk call von to ask me put her bag in my locker.. I went out at 1225.. then i saw alot of ppl wif their chinese dictionary.. den i stopped to ask irene.. She told me the exam starts at 1230.. when i tot tt it starts at 1! Gosh.. i rushed lyke mad lah.. then when i entered the venue.. ppl were staring lah.. sheesh.. watever lah.. Lucky the venue wusnt the hall.. n lucky i came out to put bag fer cheuk.. hah.. heng arh.. else will b more paiseh=S

Oh wells.. chinese paper.. wus kinda easy lah.. but.. i scared my essay will flunk.. i spent half an hr practically stoning.. i wus tinking abt sth tt my fren said to me.. siao lah.. nearly canot finish norh.. hais.. oh wells.. tml is physical geog paper.. WOOHOO~ my fav.. gona try n ace it XD haha..

Went lot one wid von after the paper.. Treated ourselves to sweettalk.. yummielicious.. hah.. Saw alot of ppl ther.. i saw zhu lao shi!! ohmanx.. miss her so muchie.. then saw my juniors.. hais.. reminded me of my sec daes.. hais.. miss it sia.. hmm.. saw cheuk, nessa, cy too.. they damn free lah.. tml they no paper.. wat the.. hais.. nt fair sia.. no paper tml summore they end on thurs! arrgh.. i m jealous!

oh wells.. me going slp liao.. lata waking up to pia geog.. hah..=D